GIBBERISH TALK-"VISUAL BLINDNESS"

I have heard that nights are followed by mornings..that each night, people sleep with the hope of waking to a beautiful dawn..I have heard that the sky is blue and roses red.. I have eaten Ice cream, but have always wondered how the cherry looked..I like Batman, for he is the Hero of the dark and like me, is forever associated with darkness…

Welcome to my world..

Darkness..Black is the colour of night..black is the colour of death..and black is the colour of my world..
Each night, I sleep into this darkness and next day, I wake into this darkness..Darkness has been my companion throughout..darkness is the only truth in my life..

Besides darkness, there is only one other person who knows me inside out..she is my life, my constant support..she is the one to whom I have confided all my fears and passions..she cannot speak, for nature has made her so, but her touches are so caring..so reassuring..
Love is blind and that suits me..

Thankful to my parents, I have always had things the way I wanted..I have a large room..and an entire bed for myself..at times, at night, I have stepped on people lying beside my bed, on the floor..mom later said, they were the servants in the house ,who were to look after me.. Mom always called me 'Raja' and I felt so too, my father had to be a king or something huge, to shower me all these luxuries..

But all was to change.. During a check up, one of the doctors deemed that after all, a surgery might sometimes restore some vision..the date was thus set..all preparations were made.. And throughout the chaos, I held her hands in mine and sat silently, wondering how my life was going to change forever!!

As the dressing was slowly removed, I barely heard what the doctor was saying, for I was so eager to experience this something new, this something that even words could not fully describe!! I wanted to see her..my parents..wanted to see colours..the cherry..batman, yes, why not? The whole experience of "experiencing the new" kept me in a bliss like never before..

Slowly the darkness began to fade..my companion was leaving me.. I shut my eyes tight, not to loose my companion..but the eagerness of what lay before me, made me open my eyes.

Brightness, with all its cruelty embraced me(darkness was soothing, kinder!!)..

My first vision, a myriad of images flooding my brain..I couldn't comprehend what was happening..i closed my eyes to shrink back into my protective shell..but it was no longer dark in there..I had lost my companion forever..

My parents stood in front of me.. I recognized them from their voices..but..but.. Something was wrong..though my father did have the heavy voice, he did not look any bit royal, on the contrary, he looked ragged and bruised..my mother was dark and tanned, with an aging face..i looked around..Where was 'she'??

Suddenly I wanted to see myself..i looked into the mirror..and looked outside instantly..tears of disappointment began to pour out of my eyes..i was no different to them..all these years, I was fed on lies..

Our palace had 2 rooms..a common room which included a kitchen with my bed at the corner(my parents slept on the ground.."servants" huh..my mind cried..). I rushed inside to meet her..my mind longed to see her..and there she sat, beside my bed, a half broken statue, with its arms stretched out to my cot..

I felt numb..i closed my eyes and touched her hands..there she was in my mind, in her entire beauty..and when I opened my eyes, and she transformed into a stone.

I had lost my companion..and now her..forever..

My surgery was funded by some institution..they claim, I got lucky, but I knew that my luck had changed forever..that I have lost MY world and now I am in alien in YOUR world..not mine..not mine..

'Oh almighty, please make me blind again, for with sight, I learnt sorrow'